Cloth Diapers, Day 2

Torah and I have ended our second day of cloth diapers with a small load waiting in the dryer. I actually feel good about this. I can't put my finger on why, but it's a feeling of knowing things are okay....? I don't know if anyone can relate, and if you can please comment.

I have been thinking a lot about things lately. Things like what I want to study and be able to do as a career. I know I plan on being a stay at home mom/wife but if my husband ever cannot work, or if -and let's pray it's not the case- he passes on young, I want to be able to provide for my family. I had been thinking and thinking until it finally hit me that I would love to be a teacher. I think history would be fun, but a language teacher would also be pretty cool. Either of those, though I do not want to be a P.E. coach.... haha!

Another one of the things that I have been pondering on is ways of helping my David more. With the baby requiring most, if not all of my attention, it is very difficult to focus on the man I love. I wish I could do more for him, yet I have no idea how since I can't even feed myself at times. I have noticed that handling the baby has gotten easier little by little, as I get more used to it, so I'm hoping it'll be the same with David.

And lastly, I have an adorable baby, so here, have a picture~

Look at her rocking those Bottombumpers~

Google it~

I have come to realize that maybe it's a good idea to try and keep certain things private. For example, your plans for baby care and parenting. I have had a lot of people flood me with questions about the whole cloth diapering thing, and I'm just here thinking, "Well, do what I did and google it."

That'd be a rude response though, and so I have to dig in my head for all the answers to their questions. I'm a new mom. New to breastfeeding, cloth diapering, and baby caring. Do you really think I have a secret answer you haven't been able to find? I understand them, I just wish they wouldn't make me feel so inadequate sometimes. I find myself thinking it might just be easier to go with formula and disposables and save myself the whole, "What about on long car rides? Will her clothes fit over that? Are you sure they're better? 15$ for a diaper is a bit much, no? What about when you can't breastfeed her? What will you do in public? She needs to bond with her father as well." and all the other things like that.

I am a very stubborn person, but if overwhelmed and overloaded, I will take the easier route. The path of least resistance. I will leave it all to others to make decisions for me, be it what I want or not at all, and will end up just going along with things. I do not want to do that when it comes to my children. I want to try my hardest for them, same way I try my hardest for my husband. In 5, 10, 20, 40 years I want to look at our kids and know that it's because of what WE as parents decided to teach them, and not because we were following an instruction manual.

Our kids were made from scratch and with a recipe of our own, with our Heavenly Father's help, and that's how we will raise them.